November 19, 2019

The following is from November 19, 2019 ~

This week I became my own best friend. My life is open to explore freedom. When I chose Freedom as my word for 2019, I had no idea what that would mean for me. Last year at this time I was in the midst of a career change which included an immense amount of education and study in a small amount of time. I was letting go of a business that I had loved and nurtured for 6 years which was a very emotional process for me, but somewhere in the back of my mind I knew that these changes needed to happen to prepare me for what was ahead. As a matter of fact, everything from the past eight years has prepared me for where I am at this moment - everything has prepared me to level up! It's interesting that only a few summers ago I wrote a blog post about this very subject not realizing where I would go on this journey would be so drastically different. I have grieved the loss of many layers of myself only to reveal more of who I am. Tuck the Fringe, which became the basis of my blog and the recovery of my true self, has taken on a meaning even I didn't know would emerge. So now here I am at the end of one season and the beginning of another, often wondering who I am if I'm not the pleaser, the fixer, the do'er, the one who has it all figured out, the healer, the wife. That is the freedom!
In maneuvering this, I have had my lowest lows and highest highs. I've shed expectations, criticisms, false beliefs, ridicule and opinions. I've shed an armor of thick skin figuratively and literally, finding a person underneath that I haven't known in a very long time. With that new freedom comes to me every day, opening me to new levels of abundance, people, places and experiences. Thank you to those who've seen me through. I may not have my blog or my writers page anymore, but in time I will find out what that's supposed to look like for me. Freedom to explore and create my life without Limits!

The excerpt above dates back to November 19, 2019, which feels particularly meaningful to me today amidst the uncertainties I've faced this year, (2024). I stumbled upon it while searching for local writing coaches. Reflecting on where I was then and where I am now, I find that while many parts of me have changed, I've also come to know myself better than ever.
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I've felt a deep desire to write again over the past two years, a call I didn't immediately heed. Writing has always been a healing presence in my life since childhood, and as Eric Liddell said in Chariots of Fire, “When I run, I feel His pleasure.'” For me, writing evokes that same sense of joy and purpose, whether it's my daily journaling or sharing on platforms like Tuck the Fringe.
This excerpt's unexpected appearance today feels like a reminder that the universe is always listening."